Sunday, March 30, 2008

My Dream

I had a dream... I can't remember if I had it last night or the night before, as I didn't remember it until just now...

I had had my baby, in a nice full pool of water.. and I felt so at peace and comfortable, and was in the "bubble" of just holding my little one. He/She was wide-eyed and alert.... can't remember checking the sex. We just stared at each other, as I held my baby in the water. I remember submersing the baby's body in the warm water, and feeling his/her body just completely relax into the water. I remember thinking, "No one to bother us.. no one to try to mess with the cord, or me, or my perfect baby..." and feeling so... healed.

I am grateful that this vision was sent to me, so I can hold it close for my affirmations of my coming birth. When I remembered it just now, I felt so much better... I have been holding so much stress and anxiety, but this vision gives me a peace about everything.

And with my experiences with deja vu, especially with dreaming the future (usually little non-significant tidbits), I thought I would write this one down before I forgot.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Week 6

So tomorrow is the beginning of week 6 of my beautiful pregnancy. I am half-way through the tentative time.... the first trimester is a relief for me to get out of. I feel better knowing my chance of losing baby after 12 weeks drops considerably. I am already so attached to this baby....

I am really concentrating on my nutrition this pregnancy. With my first, I did all the things my midwife and family told me to do... don't eat soft cheese.. undercooked meat... raw eggs... junk food... processed foods... etc. The usual "don't" list. However, no one really told me what I *should* be eating. For example, 80-100g of protein a day. so, I'm not only cutting out the "don't eat" list, (except raw eggs.... my dear friend Kristen corrected me on those! Just wash the outer shell..) I am also concentrating on what I should eat everyday.
So far, I've been getting the 80-100g of protein a day... I've also been drinking TONS of water. I had dehydration issues with my first pregnancy, so I want to be careful with that. I also am drinking many nourishing teas; red raspberry leaf, oatstraw, alfalfa, nettle, red clover, dandelion, etc. I have only been eating organic foods as well. It's more expensive, but a price cannot be put on my or my unborn baby's health! However, I plan on having a very large garden this summer, to help with the costs of organic produce.
I have also been concentrating on my fitness more this pregnancy. I do yoga, meditate, do sun salutes, and some Tai Chi everyday. I will also start walking everyday once it starts to warm up here! And this summer will be spent running after my energetic daughter :) Swimming will be in high demand in the hot season as well! Oh, I can't wait for the pool!!

Anyway, I've already noticed that I'm not as nauseas when I eat my protein right away. I have also been drinking spirulina smoothies, which help supply a huge dose of B-vitamins. Of course, B-vitamins are not only vital for baby, but also helps keep morning sickness, depression, and tiredness minimal for mom. I will have to post a picture of my daughter's spirulina mustache one of these days lol.

My brother and his girlfriend are getting ready for baby *any day now*!! I am feeling anxious about it, but optimistic. She is having her baby in the hospital, with a midwife... but her midwife will be going on vacation in less than a week! Time's-a-ticking for her, as she doesn't want a doctor attending. I hope labor starts for her soon!

The Beginnings of a Radical Pregnancy

February 22nd, 2008~
We started remodeling our new home. Grandma Blue came over and helped Jason take down all the wallpaper with the steamer, wash the glue off the walls, spackle, sand, paint, and clean. I stayed at the apartment with Teagan and packed everything while also cleaning the place to make our move easier. I finish the day feeling totally drained... unusually tired... but I just contribute it to the stress and energy I'm using getting moving done.

February 23rd, 2008~
We all got together and finished painting and cleaning. Our friends, Heidi and Forest, Jeremy, my brothers, my dad, and our friend Josh came over to help us clean up and get everything moved quickly. The majority got moved, and then we all went out to eat afterwards. I am feeling very excited to be spending the first night in our new home!!

February 24th, 2008~
Since we started moving, I hadn't been taking my temperature every morning, so I had no idea where I was at in my cycle.. except that I was quite a few days past ovulation. I took a pregnancy test at 5:30am (I couldn't sleep!!) and it came back negative. :( No worries, I tell myself; it will be positive tomorrow!!
I spend the rest of the day unusually tired but I have energy. It was kind of weird! I got a lot of unpacking done and the house clean. Daniel and I also went over to the apartment and got the rest of the stuff out of there.

February 25th, 2008~
I wake up AGAIN at 5:30am... so weird, I think. I've been getting up at about 7:30 for the past two years or so, so I'm not sure what is going on...
until I decide to take another pregnancy test.
Positive! Holy crap, is that really positive?? I thought. It was so so light, but it was there, that elusive vertical line that has been hiding from me for the past 6 months! I just walked out into the livingroom, so overwhelmed... and cried. When Jason came home, I had him look at the test to be sure I wasn't hallucinating. He said he saw it too!! We are just so so happy :)

February 26th, 2008~
I take another test; positive again!! This time the line is darker, too! Now I know why I've been SO SO tired! I take this test into my mom's work so she can see it.
I spend the day in Alex, and I tell my brother, Ashley, and my auntie Michelle the good news at breakfast. Then, Ash and I head over to Ron's Warehouse, and I snatch up a cool digital pregnancy test. Those faint lines just weren't doing it for me ;). That night, I took the digital, and the beautiful word "Pregnant" came right up!!! Everyone was then told that a new baby would be in our family come November!